want
to thank everyone who apparently knows me well enough, although we have never
met face to face and only through typed text, that there was something wrong in
my life and were concerned. I am human after all.. and I have real day to day
issues like everyone else. When I get down, I tend to retreat into myself and
although, not become anti-social, but just get quiet and do not seek out alot of
company.A.) My mom was diagnosed with liver cancer this past summer. The same as which my father died from 8 years ago.
B.) My friend Holger, one of my mushing mentors, who is the one who got me into sledding died in July in a tragic logging accident. He was only 36 and he was the kind of person who everyone thought was immortal and invincible. I felt my own mortality.
C.) There was no summer and my garden failed miserably. Hawks and skunks were depleting my chicken flock. The hogs this year are right mean.
D.) Problems in my personal relationship with my bf of 4 years. I am now a single homesteader. Part of the reason of my leaving to go on vacation over my birthday was to let him and I think... and we have now parted ways as of this week. It was a shock and it wasn't. Although I am saddened, it is a huge weight off my shoulders.
So give me a bit more time.. I will be back to my normal tenzi ramblings soon.